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Sometimes I lay in my bed and I wonder where I'm headed in life

I try to figure out my purpose and if there is more to it than what I know.

I feel so lost and confused and hungry for some sort of path, 

It feels as if I was dropped in the middle of a desert without a compass

Am I gonna play ball? What's my comm degree gonna do for me? 

Should I take on my pops business? Should I do something to help people?

I don't know. 

My mom seems unhappy and my father seems unhappy

I think it's because they're both getting to that age

And the thought of them soon not being here makes me sad and distant from everything else

I cry at night because any moment could be the last time they tell me they love me.

It is crazy how as kids we don't realize how much our parents care for us

It's not until we're older and time is winding down when we finally appreciate them

I know the family that raised me will always be my support,

but I can't say the same for the people I call my friends, it's hard to determine

I think about who's really in it for me and has my best interest at heart.

Lately I even feel like there is no one I can trust and that everybody is here to snake me,

I'd rather sit in my room and think about my life than play videos games with the boys in the living room

Because the more I think, the more I can distinguish what the most important aspects are. 

I ask myself questions like, who's gonna be around five years from now?

who would come see me if I went to jail? who would fuck my girl if there was an opportunity to? who would lend me money if I needed it? 

I'm reminded of how cold the world can be so I close my door and keep sheltered until I reach my goal

Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus

Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus...
Men...men desire pussy, and women...well they love penis...
But there lies greater differences between the sexes and the sex'n...
And they range from the way we deal with ex's to how we express shit

See men are selfish, we always want the best bitch...
But it's never the man who wants to make the investment...
It's never the man who wants to sacrifice...
So I can't blame a woman for sayin niggaz don't be actin right

But women, yall will find any reason to complain...
Shit drives us insane, shut the hell up, let us watch the game...
And you always wanna make false accusations...
Mean while you're doin all the shit you claim you hatin

But, women naturally nurture, and even show mental affection...
But to most men from Mars, the only affection we know is physical erection...
See we act blind, and often times forget to respect the woman's mind...
We fall for the least important aspects, and all we become concerned about, is how you look from behind

But men...when a man does love, he loves real, he loves hard...
Up until the wrong woman from venus leaves him embarrassed and scarred...
See when a man or woman is betrayed, both will have similar reactions...
The difference is with men, there are no second chances


.....Men are from Mars...........Women are from Venus...

               ...but on Earth we all reside...

        ...so...

               ...we'll just have to coincide...



                                                                                         -Duke Ihenacho

Think vs Know

A lot of people think they know me...

They think I'm self-centered, arrogant, and cocky...and all I want is the attention...

They think I don't want to work and that I want everything to come easy to me...

They think I'm stubborn and hard-headed, a renegade...

People look at me and think I'm all about the girls and groupies...that I'm just a jock

They think I can care less about school...

They read my statuses on Facebook and my twitter timeline and they develop an inaccurate image of

who I really am...

They think they know me...

but...

If they really knew me...

They'd know that I'm full of surprises...

They'd know that even though I may visually appear full of myself or to be an asshole, I'm actually sincere and compassionate to others...

They'd know that I'm weird, and that I'm interested in the unusual things, like Harry Potter stories, and that I actually Sex in the City (only the first movie), and interior designing (random? I know)...

If they really knew me, they'd know that I'm much more than just an athlete or an alpha, and that I have a multiple array of talents and qualities that can add to my unique identity

They'd know that it's not about chasing women and being promiscuous, and that I've grown from that period of my life...

They'd know that I've been trying better myself physically, emotionally, and spiritually...

They'd know how intelligent I am, and they wouldn't let my tattoos and the fact I'm a football player distort their perceptions of me...

They'd know how loyal and trustworthy I am...

They'd know how much I deserve a genuinely good woman, and how equipped and prepared I am to be that genuinely good man in return...

They'd know what family and friendship means to me, and that I would go the length to ensure their well-being and happiness...

They'd know how much I love my mother and that all I want to do is repay her...

If people really knew me, they'd know my drive for success and desire to be better than the next person...

but...

They don't...

They only know what's directly in front of them...and essentially...

They know nothing...

Dear Queen

Queen, 

Where have you been? I've been searching for your presence and beauty for as long as I can remember. Your absence has left me unstable and misguided. 

Queen, please, come claim your throne adjacent to mine. Be the one that I turn to for foundation. Be my eyes and ears so that I can walk down the correct path of loyalty, faith, and love.

Let down your guard, become vulnerable, realize that not every man has the intent on hurting you. You deserve the protection and security of royalty. 

Your strength and ferociousness are proven qualities of only a King is worthy to experience. You are a gift to mankind and you deserve this kingdom.

Queen, you deserve the highest quality of life, nothing short of happiness, joyfulness, peace, and serenity. The sun will rise and shine with your every smile.

Queen, patience is essential, you deserve a King that embodies the values of family and tradition. One who covets and earns your trust. 

You should be thoroughly satisfied, mind, body, and soul...

Queen….here I am,

Sincerely,

King

Girlfriend?

It's crazy how when you don't got it, you want it. But when you got it, you don't appreciate it and you really don't want it. I guess I can say that's how I feel when it comes to having a girl. There are so many ups and positives that come with having a girl. There are so many fun and memorable times. But shit, girls always find ways to transform into the biggest headaches lol. I'm pretty it works both ways, but I'm speaking on my behalf rite now so bare with me. Often times, I find myself thinking about all the reasons I would want a girl. I always see us walking in the cold somewhere in San Francisco wearing nice ass peacoats, or see us randomly buying each other shit and surprising each other, or see her picking me up in my car from school or practice, or I see her be there waiting for me after my football games to give me a kiss even though I was stinky lol, or even just laying in the bed together all day. Yea I always think about all that good shit. But then something changes and I start to think about all the reasons I don't want a girl. I think about how I don't want her checking up on me just because she can, and I don't wanna feel obligated to talk on the phone when I don't feel like it, and I don't want all the accusations and assumptions that she comes with lol, or the complaints and nagging about me spending too much time with my boys and not enough with her. Essentially I would lose a small portion of my freedom. And I don't know how to take that. And don't tell me, "you're young, don't worry about it, have fun Duke", everybody that tells me that is single or ugly...or both. But yea, at this exact point in my life, I think I'm ready for a nice woman to blow me away. But there's no telling how I may feel three months from now. I guess that's a risk that someone is just gonna have to take with me. I think......you know what, I'm done with this blog, maybe I'll pick up where I left off later.

Knowing the Rules!

As a friend, you just gotta know the rules. One of the rules is that you don't fuck with your friend's girl or guy. It's common sense and it should never happen. Even if your friend and his or her significant other aren't involved with each other anymore, that's one situation you should stay away from. When you get involved with your friend's ex, it's like a slap in the face, you're basically saying fuck our friendship. And then what it does is damage trust and makes shit awkward. See the thing about me is that I'm a loyal friend. Not just to my immediate friends but to everybody I consider a friend. I will never put myself in a situation where I could get involved with one of my boy's girls. I don't flirt with them, I don't friend request them on Facebook, I don't comment on pics, shit I don't even speak to them unless they're with my boy. I make it clear that the only connection that me and you have is through my boy. That way, if she and my boy don't work out, then she'll be out of the picture for good. Because I know, that if I still keep in touch with her, there's always going to be that possibility. The best thing to do is never be in that situation. I'm actually kinda in this situation rite now. One of my boys recently kinda crossed into that "no fly zone" with a girl I used to be involved with. Not a big deal, but its still something you don't do. But you know I'm mature about mine so I handled the situation in the appropriate manner...like a grown man.